almonds, eating an entire life sustaining growth kit

chicago life. we all have pets that are space heaters and they follow us everywhere

fuck YOOOOUuu! I can say whaddeye want ta WHOOOoo!

my hair is growing long, thick, soft, rich, natural, it's growing for you

my mind is a broken pinball machine a rickety wind up car a galloping three legged steed

ritual through repetition, art, knitting
and almonds, eating an entire life sustaining growth kit
- anneli says these things


my memory is completely shot. like a dog, a dead, hole filled, fucking dog.

I had a dream where everything I needed was found. and then I woke up. many mornings this happens. this is why I sleep so much.

there's to many words in this, simpler

I feel guilty for most everything i do unless I'm with other people

banging drums

i'm trying to do it

can't you just be with me all the time, follow me like aku aku or the little green firefly, tinker bell and loyal dogs, sidekicks and advisors

to build one of you with a heart i truly strive

I am not called upon, I am not texted so, I do not have a follower and I should not have a soul

who are you calling a sex addict

you talk about it you're not alone

my father once had seven earrings lining his left ear. It's the little things like that from a big complicated life that you shouldn't be able to forget.

my father felt love for a spanish non english speaking worker who sewed at the awning company he welded for. he said she was beautiful. he welded awning after awning in our city, and pointed them out to me every time we passed one, and noted as time passed in oakland and nevada city when they were removed or changed. The woman he eyed, who returned his smiles and flirtations was gunned down by her boyfriend in his factory late at night, and he says the cops didn't clean it up. they had worked beside each other for two years. he broke down drunk to me one night when i was 14, telling me between sobs that he had to sweep up the shattered pieces of her skull, and scrub the floor during the early hours of the morning after the others had left him to his business there. he has not spoken of it since, and I don't plan on reminding him. he is to good to be reminded.